With just a couple of days before this kid makes his debut, I’m trying to be appreciative of things.
This was a completely unplanned pregnancy – Moo says it wasn’t since we weren’t doing anything to prevent it – but as you know, I didn’t think I could get pregnant again without drugs and crazy calendars and doctors involved. But this is definitely the last pregnancy for me.
I will be getting my tubes tied during Thursday’s surgery. Mainly because of one of my mother’s friends. She didn’t think she could get pregnant – she was 50. In fact, when she missed a couple of periods she just thought she was entering menopause.
What took her to the doctor was the overwhelming tiredness she felt. At that time, hormone replacement therapy was in full swing and all the menopausal women in my acquaintance were taking hormones to help deal with the symptoms.
She went to her doctor in hopes of getting something to help with the fatigue and they ran a pregnancy test “just in case” and found out she was pregnant. That child, a daughter, was a blessing to them, but I do not want to be walking around, 50 years old, being surprised by a pregnancy.
So this is my last pregnancy and I am trying to enjoy these last few days. There’s much to be done: cleaning, preparing the nursery, getting ready for a visit from Grandma, last minute packing and a million little tasks that “just have to be done”. But there’s also the moments of laying in bed with Moo as he rubs my belly and we talk. There’s the moments of having Phoebe pat my belly and ask about the baby. There’s feeling this baby move around and remind me of his presence almost constantly.
There’s the tiredness I feel after walking through Target. The heaviness of my belly, my hand supporting my back, the glances I get from people.
I’m still fighting a cold and my throat hurts and I can’t take a damn thing for it except plain Sudafed and Tylenol, but I’m appreciative of that. Not being able to take something and just crash because of this life I’m cultivating.
The Braxton-Hicks contractions remind me that my body is preparing for his arrival. I’ve been dilated at about 3 cm for about 2 weeks now. My body knows he’s almost ready and I am appreciative of that.
I am appreciative of the friends and family who have rallied around me. One friend has kept Phoebe for me on Thursdays while I was at the perinatologist’s office. My aunt and her sister have kept Phoebe while I went to the doctor on some of the Mondays and another friend has kept her on another Monday. My husband has used his days off to watch her other days. Another friend sent me 4 giant boxes of little boy clothing. Another friend gave us her gently used but still serviceable infant car seat while another has given us a high chair that’s barely been used. My mom’s club has already arranged the delivery of several meals after the birth of this kid.
How thankful I am for all of them!
How thankful I am for experiencing all this!